Sunday, May 23, 2010

The Good Old Days...

Remember those days? The ones where it was worth waking up at 6 on Saturday mornings to see the good cartoons. Where Pogs were the best piece of cardboard ever created? Where Pokemon was new and amazing?

What happened?!

Friday, May 21, 2010

Those Days

You know those days. The ones where you have nothing to fucking do, and you're bored of the things you usually enjoy doing? I can't stand them! I have something to do tonight, but nothing to do during the day!!! It's amazingly pathetic.

When I'm in the middle of these days I feel like just dying until it's time for me to go do whatever I have to do. Sadly, my body wont let me die or fall asleep. I wish there was some sort of way to advance time. It would come in really fucking handy.


Saturday, May 15, 2010

"Nothing ever works out for me." What do you mean? "Whenever I plan things, people cancel on me...*begins to cry and cuts self*"

Alright listen up. What the fuck is wrong with people. Okay well I have been writing on this blog for several months now, and I'm pretty sure everyone who has read something that has come from my mind has noticed that there is clearly something wrong with a lot of people.

Today's topic. When people over react on plans being canceled.

It happens to me a lot, that either I have plans, and everyone ends up being busy, or it just doesn't happen because of weather or something else. I don't go around all depressed because of that. I don't sit in a fucking corner and cry the whole day. If something gets canceled. I either find something else to do. Or just economies, by staying home and doing fuck matter how boring it is. As a matter of fact, it's what's happening to me RIGHT NOW!!! I'm sitting here, indoors in front of my computer writing about this. Because I see people status's on Facebook saying how upset they are. The weather is crappy and fucked up my plans...I would have been skating around town right now, but no. Things didn't go my way. I tried something else. Didn't happen either. So I'm stuck at home whoop di fuckin' doo!!! At least I'm not crying like a loser...

What I'm trying to say is that when someone or something happens. You can't let it ruin everything in your day. Sure it sucks that you can't do anything, but make the best of it. There is plenty of things to do in the world. Good weather or not...

Whenever I see people saying how upset they are because their plans are canceled. I think well honestly. There could be something worse right? There is tons of stuff going on in the world that you are incredibly lucky you aren't going through. I wont go into too much detail because I'm going to touch upon it in another post, but there are people in the world barely getting any sleep because of the fear of war and violence, or people buried under ruble or dirt because of natural disaster. Even in our own home cities or towns there are homeless people living on the streets with barely nothing, and you're upset about how shit is always canceling on you? These people have to be strong just to get through the day, but I don't think these people of our time realize this. They just walk right by it. Oblivious that there is something way fucking worse out there. Then friends canceling on you. By the way. If your friends have canceled on you a multiple of times. Have you ever got the impression that maybe they don't like you? Doesn't mean it's true...but it could be the case.


Monday, May 10, 2010


Hello, I'm fucking pissed as shit right now...why you ask? High school! The worst possible thing to happen to people. It turns people in to fucking little assholes who enjoy spreading shit that isn't true or shit that doesn't really matter, the only reason it's being spread is to be making you looks bad. See this is why I'm a rebel. Because I don't fucking care! Spread as much shit about me, try to ruin my "reputation" I honestly couldn't care less. the only thing that fucking gets to me, and fucking pisses me off is that people who you thought are your friends pass this shit about you around like fucking herpes!!!

Listen, people do stupid things. I do stupid things. EVERYONE DOES DO STUPID THINGS!!! Now just because something stupid went down doesn't fucking mean you should go be telling people. It isn't hot gossip. I'm not a celebrity, and even if I was I would be pretty fucking pissed if people would be spreading shit about me.

Now it's even worse when one of your so called "friends" know this rumor, and maybe even if they aren't spreading it. They wont tell you who they heard it from. Because they know God damn well know that whoever told them will be loosing a large portion of blood if you found out. Well in my opinion I would beat the living shit or verbal destroy this person. "But wait Mike! What if the person that is spreading shit is one of your friends?" Well first off, if they were fucking friends they wouldn't be saying things about you. Especially if it would be something either embarrassing or something just not to be fucking told.

But whatever. Spread rumors, tell lies. Release secrets. Just don't complain when you are getting the consequences. Even if it does involve people beating you up or people getting pissed at you. So as a message to all the mother fuckers out there that DO spread shit without consent of those it concerns. GO FUCK YOURSELF!!!!


Sunday, May 9, 2010

Why is my personel life such gossip?

I don't get it? I do things in life, and people just make it seems like it's hot off the front page of some magazine. It spreads like wild fire, and people don't quit asking me what did you do? What did you do? When I keep fucking telling them. NONE OF YOUR FUCKING BUSINESS!!!

I think people just enjoy getting involved with other peoples lives in that way because their lives are utterly boring and they can't entertain themselves and make their own choices. So they decide to go nose around in other peoples lives and see what's going on. I find it extremely fucking annoying and extremely fucking rude.

It's kind of like with celebrities. People go fucking ape shit to know what they are doing at every single second. These people can't take a fucking piss without someone trying to figure out what's going on. When gowning and moaning because u have back pain turns into you are in an affair with a homeless clown named Bobo. THERE'S A FUCKING PROBLEM.

I'm going to make this a short post because I've said what I had to say, but I have one message for all those people that can't just leave people alone and stay out of peoples lives when you are clearly not wanted. FUCK YOU!!!


Wednesday, May 5, 2010


Hello everybody...
Today, I'm here to talk about myself...I know I'm nothing special and nothing to be talked about in general, but if you read the little writing under my header, you will clearly see that this site is for things that bug me and things that I dislike. So honestly, I fit right into this site, because if there is one thing I hate more than anything and would want to change completely, it's myself.

When I'm with friends, it's pretty hard to notice how much I'm hurting. Actually, I never show it in public. Although, there are a couple of close friends that know. That know how I really feel. No matter how stupid and funny I act on the outside. I feel dead and empty on the inside. Like a nut. On the outside the shell may seem nice, but once cracked open. You notice it was a bad nut.

I'm not smart, I'm not intelligent. If i even looked at a certain math problem I probably wouldn't be able to figure it out. All I am to myself is a shadow. Following a giant crowd of happy people. Trying to fit in, but for some reason it doesn't feel right.

I know I can be bitter, and I sometimes am to the people that care about me. So I apologize for that.

I honestly don't know what's making me so miserable. Life itself is just weighing on my shoulders, and I have to balance out everything that comes with it. I'm no circus clown. I wish that I could just drop all these plates. Live life easily, even though I know that's pretty impossible.

I've been neglected by my parents a lot in life. When ever they used to argue I was the one to get the after math. Now that they are separated they attempt to fix their mistake, and make me see that they really love me. Although they have chip a cup that cannot be fixed. This piece inside me. Missing. They say they love me. All I see is the past. The yelling, the arguments. Maybe that's why I'm so angry, and my anger is causing me sorrow. Both of those could be leading up to misery and depression. This is just a theory. There is so much more in my life that could have caused this.

Lately I haven't been wanting to get out of bed. There is no reason for me too. School seemed as a joke. I know that it would only bring me down even worse. Maybe I need a psychiatrist maybe I need pills to make me feel better, you know what I say to that? Fuck that. I don't need help to get better. I know there is something wrong with me. Deep inside, behind these bones, lies a pain which seems to grow.

Another reason that could be making me lead up to this feeling of sadness. Could be that I don't let out any of my feelings. I keep them bottled in. Then, they just start to over flow. Causing an uncontrollable amount of explosion of emotions. Maybe I'm in the stage of me ready to pop. Burst out in tears. Ready to fall...

I honestly don't know what's wrong with me...
When I look in the mirror, I see a broken person, and I hate what I see...
I hope this wound one day mends, to make me whole and stand as one again.
Because right now I'm just a puppet with no strings. I sit upon a counter top waiting for life to move. To do something. Yet I'm stuck waiting here...wondering when things will ever come. I feel as if this relieved a bit of presure. So maybe it was a good idea to write this here.

Call me emo, call me whatever you want...
Because this hurts...
And I'm pretty sure that nothing else would penetrate this pain to make it worse...


Monday, May 3, 2010

Kids These Days...

Kids these days, they're are all fucked!!! All of them! These new generations are nothing but posers and whores. They want to be like the grown ups. They see that making strip videos, having sex, smoking and getting drunk is the shit. It really isn't!!! Apart from the fact that I do all of those things...except from the strip videos. Kids these days just do what they see on t.v., movies and just watch what the older generations do. If it wasn't for us, they wouldn't be doing what they do. Although it is their own fault that they attempt to do what we do terribly.

First off, I can't really criticize them on looking up to the older generations and getting ideas from them. Because when we were 12 that's what we did. And the smoking and drinking all came from influence. Even if we don't think it. Some people reading this are like, "This kid is only a teenager, he isn't even an adult yet.". Well, I would like to promptly tell you to go fuck yourself. Because even though I'm not an adult. I speak my mind more maturely than some of them.

Anyways, kids these days are all into that hip-hop shit. I personally don't get what's so good about it. It's a loud base, with a guy talking really fast. But I guess that's what's "in". In most of these music videos, there are girls half naked dancing around like fucking strippers. (Not that I mind) This is not only degrading to woman, it just makes it look like all girls now a days are easy.(Not that I really care)I see little grade 7's thinking they are the shit, with their pants down to their knees and hat turned to the side. With a cigarette in between their lips and they are coughing more than an exhaust pipe of a 1986 Mustang. Then you have the 12 year old girls making strip tease videos for their "boyfriends" or attempting to have sex even though he isn't even old enough to get it up right. Wearing their skirts so high you can see the bottom of their ass cheeks. Do you see a problem here? I do!

Sometimes I would just want to smack this kids in the back of the heads. Honestly. I failed. I failed at remaining strong against peer pressure. But these kids, they are smarter than that. They should be the ones trying to stop this...propaganda being spread all over the nation. It's horrifically stupid.

I'm thinking right now. About how kids are moving into a scene, into a style that's going to stick with them. So if they want to look like retards with their pants on the ground. Or look like hookers with their non existing skirts. I guess that's what they want to be seen as. Well that's their choice. I can't say it will always be that way. Me for instance. I used to be all "Yo, yo, was-up dawg?" Now I'm all "Fuck you" People change. I like where I am now. If they like what they're doing fine. In my opinion it's disgusting.


Saturday, May 1, 2010

Behind those friendly eyes, lies only betrayal...

Your friends...are they really your friends? Has it ever happened to you, that your "friend" says, "I promise I wont tell anyone" so you tell them whatever you have to tell them, and then all of a sudden. The whole fucking world knows what you told that single person. Then you ask them what the fuck happened, and they give you a fucking excuse like, "Oops, it slipped out." or "I guess someone over heard us talking." There is a possibility that the last one occurs, but if you know how to whisper. It shouldn't be a problem.

Friends are people you can count on. People you can trust. Friends are people you can have fun with. People who when you need them and they are there, like you're there for them. But if you have a "friend" that can't keep their fucking mouth shut when you clearly tell them too. I don't know if that would considered a friend. Where you can't tell them something private without them spreading the world as if it was herpes.

Also what bugs me about some friends is when they hear something from someone else or just have heard something about you going around. They wont tell you. Because they promised the other person that they wouldn't tell. Honestly I find this extremely fucking stupid, for the fact that YOU ARE INVOLVED IN THE THING BEING SPREAD! If you weren't involved then it would be none of your business. Although if someone is spreading something about you that either isn't true or wasn't suppose to be told. Why the fuck is it such a problem for people who say their you're friends to tell you something that involves you. I think it would be because if these kind of things piss you off and they know it does. They don't want you breaking the other persons legs. Which in my opinion is always needed.

To all people that either can't keep their mouth shut, or enjoy holding back secrets that involve the person that wants to know. You are a fucking bitch faced asshole and deserve to get cunt.